Hitting 30

I hit 30 a couple of weeks ago. I figure I'm a pretty cliched kind of guy so it was time to reflect on my life and see where I am with respect to where I wanted to be. Obviously turned out that i was no where close. Then feeling bad about it and sticking with the "cliche" theme, it was time to go out and do something stupid. So got me a leather jacket, a new pair of sunglasses and a brand new ferrari. Ok..so it was the Hotwheels kind..but hey..still blew my savings on it.It was worth it!

But seriously I'm not sure how I feel about where my life is right now. I think I'm doing all right. The only expected thing that I don't have right now is being in a relationship. When I was younger, I really didn't think I'd be single at 30 . But now that I am, I don't know what to make of it. Should I be worried? As people get older, it seems harder to find someone. Add fatter, balder and the fact that I waddle around like a penguin cos i get aches in my joints sometimes to the equation and my case becomes even harder. But women don't care about that stuff in a man do they?.....do they??!.....no..really....do they???

I've spent a lot of time living alone over the last few years and I'm pretty much in my own universe most of the time(yes..in other words....I am a loner/loser). Though I'm very comfortable with that, I'm pretty sure that's not what I want for the rest of my life. As the young daughter of my ******** (witheld out of shear fear that I won't live to see a day beyond 30) once said..."you need to get married...don't you want someone to cook for you?.....that's the reason daddy got married". Yeah..apart from other things, I do want someone who cooks for me..... occasionally at least....without having to pay for it.

Anyway..people older than me would probably say..relax..you're still young. People younger than me already say move on with it "dadajaan" (grandpa). And single people around my age would probably say.."@#$@#.i get enough of this from my mom..i don't need you to remind me again"

I guess that's all the thinking i want to do about it for now. I'll just be patient and let the universe decide for me. It's done a pretty ok job for me so far. Meanwhile, I can wear my jacket and sunglasses and take my ferrari for a spin...or in my case...just spin it.